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posted: 06/13/13

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I get this question a lot,

“How do you keep going?”

Or maybe it isn’t so much a question as it is a statement of

I just can’t imagine.

If you are new to Wine & Glue, you will most often find pretty posts about desserts (more and more frequently desserts . . . ), easy dinners, fun crafts, and colorful printables.

But occasionally you will get a post that is just for me.


Posts about losing my mom to breast cancer hours after our first child was born.

Posts about losing our second child, Elliot, a week after he was born to an extremely rare birth defect.

I so often hessitate to write posts like this. Because Pinterest loves sugar, and no one really likes to talk about death.

But I recently read a post from a blogger I respect immensely. A post that had nothing to do with sugar and everything to do with life. And it gave me hope and strength that I’m not alone in living a life that was unplanned. Living out a story that you didn’t really want.

There is no easy answer to how I have survived the last five and a half years. And often, especially lately, it is a question that I find asking myself.

And believe me, there are times when I don’t think I can go on.

When I was in the last month of my pregnancy and my mom was fading right before my eyes, I was certain that there was no way to go on after her death. I was 100% sure that the end of my mom’s life meant the end of my own.

That sounds absolutely crazy, but the idea of going on without her felt impossible. The idea of learning to be a mother without her loving guidance felt insurmountable. I remember crying myself to sleep, every night for a month.

I was terrified.

And then Gavin came.

And then my mom was gone.

And there were moments of deep deep darkness.

But there were also moments of immeasurable joy.

And somewhere deep inside of me I found the strength to be the mom that I know my mom knew I could be.

And when we lost Elliot . . . I remember thinking that life was just so impossibly unfair. I had already served my time. I had already experienced enough grief to last a lifetime. It seemed like there had been some grave mistake.

But of course, that’s not really how it works.

It’s not about fair share.

What has made me carry on in those moments of deep unrelenting darkness?

Gavin.

Quinn.

Wanting to be the mom that I think they deserve.

Nathan.

Knowing that there is no one else in the whole world who has shared my story like my dear sweet husband.

And the faith that there is something greater.

There is something bigger than me and my grief, and this life that has taken turns that I absolutely did not want it to make.

Some call that something, God, and some call it something else.

But that faith in something greater, something bigger has carried me on. Knowing that I am just one tiny piece of this universe, and even if I can’t make sense it all . . . that’s okay.

Having faith that all that comes to you, the good and the bad, is a gift from God is a hard practice. One that I don’t live up to all the time. But I refuse to live a life that doesn’t at least strive to look at things this way.

Besides.

Having faith in a God also gives me someone that I can get really pissed at.

The printable.

These are not at all the lyrics to the very popular Fun Song, “Carry On.” The actual lyrics go, “May your past be the sound of your feet upon the ground. Carry On.”

But . . . I like it path so much more.

You just keep moving forward.

One day at a time.

One foot in front of the other.

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Hi! I'm Lisa Longley, and I am committed to giving you simple dinner ideas and recipes that are easy to make; recipes that will fill your home with joy. I am the owner and author of SimpleJoy.com and I'm so glad that you are here.

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  1. Rachel Willis says

    Great quote and printable. Very simply said, Lisa!

  2. Julie Evink says

    All I’m going to say is “I love you Lisa”

  3. Hayley @ The Domestic Rebel says

    Lisa, I had no idea you lost both your mother and your child. How terrible; that’s something no one should go through in their life. I wish I could offer some awesome little quote about how life’s unfairness is all justified or whatever, but I can’t because when people offer me those quotes I kind of want to spit in their face. Life sucks at times, and you think (or at least I do), what’s the point? If I’m going to be buried in grief or sadness and live in a world where so much bad happens, why even try to be here? But then, right as I’m thinking there’s no use, something small and inspiring happens, like my dog wags his tail or my sister gives me a hug and I think, even if this world is cruel sometimes, it’s worth it for little slivers like these. Or, if nothing else, for whiskey, because whiskey is effing awesome.

    Hang in there, my dear friend. I love you and am so thankful for our awesome friendship we’ve forged in this crazy world of blogging! You can text me anytime and we can skype-drink with each other if you ever want to. Love the printable and quote, all I can say is I’m here for you and let’s cheers to the world sucking but us being badasses despite it.

  4. Dorothy @ Crazy for Crust says

    I heart you Lisa. You are an amazing woman, one I look forward to talking to every day. Well…reading, emailing, stalking. You are an inspiration!

  5. Karen Daniels says

    Sad story, and it’s “past” not “path” in the song that quote comes from.

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